Is it fun to Lose and to Pretend?

I wanna stop pretending I have friends
I wanna stop pretending I’m not proud of being a loser
I just wanna put my life in the hands of a Rock n’ Roll band for them to throw it all away.
I wanna stop pretending I don’t miss her
I wanna stop pretending I miss him that much
I wanna stop pretending it’s fun to lose and to pretend
I wanna stop pretending.

I’m worse at what I do best that has always been the strangest gift.